I guess everyone has a list...

I don't really believe in making New Year's resolutions. They just seem so forced, so silly. They get forgotten about 2 weeks into the new year, and you end up feeling guilty, and no one likes to feel guilty. Also, to quote Emilybee (who is kind of quoting Jacob...)  "Jacob said something yesterday, that sort of confirmed it all in a nice, concise, phrase, “are you making a resolution because of a conviction or out of guilt and shame? because one will free you and one will enslave you.”" Amen, brother.

Like Brittany, I do believe in setting realistic goals for myself, regardless of the time frame. I do have convictions. I see things about myself that I'm just not happy with, and that I'd like to change.

In the past year, through the generosity of others, as well as my own impulsive instincts, I have managed to obtain the following:

*A Kitchen Aid mixer

*A Jack Le Lanne power juicer

*A Cuisinart food processor

*A gym membership at 24-hour fitness

I have everything I need to get healthy. Now it's up to me.

I would love to lose the weight, but that's not my primary goal. My focus is on my health. Naturally, weight loss will be a bonus side effect of getting healthy, but I don't have an actual "goal weight" or anything. I'd like to be around the size I was when I graduated high school. I thought I was fat then, of course, but I look back and realize I was actually pretty darn healthy. That was 10 years ago, so I'm realistic about the fact that it will take some time and patience. I'm ready, though. I have the determination to do it. I'm tired of being tired all the time. I'm sick of walking up one flight of stairs and being winded. I'm ready for my body to look the way I feel inside.

I'm actually really excited about the prospect of taking care of myself for the first time in a long time.

Other goals:

*hang out with Soma ladies more often, learn from others how to be a better wife to my husband.

*mature in my relationship with God.

*be a loving a reliable friend

*walk my dog. DAILY!

There are more, but my head is pounding and my nose is running and I just want to go home and go to sleeeeeep!